This is actually pretty serious, and because of it, I am going to put it all under a cut, so if you all want to read this you can, or you can skip it.. but any support or wishes will be much appreciated. I know alot of my friends over on FB want to know what happened, as most of you know I had a huge panic attack. I am posting this here because it's easier then messeging you all seperatly.. plus having to tell it 10 times over just kinda makes me sad again, and I am trying VERY hard to look on the bright sides here..

Thanks for reading. :)
Hope everyone else is having a nice and safe day/night.

This question would be almost to hard to answer, as theres some many video games and characters out there I just love, and wouldn't mind being friends with in real life.
But since I have to pick one, well.. I would have to say Gustafa from the Harvest Moon series.
That is completely random I know, but I think, judging by his character, him and I would get along well.
He plays guitar, he is obviously into the arts and music, and he's always just so peaceful.
I could see him teaching me how to play my own guitars to a proffesional level, and how to write music. We would probably give out jam nights at the tavern in town. During the day we would hike around and he explain all the diffrent plants growing out in the woods, or try to feed some random animal.

Now that I think about it, maybe the reason this character came to my mind right away, is because he reminds me of my fiance, who is really, almost like the real life version anyways, haha.

Or well, my book I am calling, currently "Snow", which alot of you, especially if you know me on DA, would know this is the one with Felina, Katsu, Mircea, Dareious, all of them basically.
It's my biggest one I have been planning out to date, and currently, it's all over the place. Next to the main story, I somehow ended up having a bunch of sub-stories going along with it focused around diffrent characters or groups in my main story. Example would be, my best friend Ash and I making our rp into a story of it's own, in which my side OC's Mircea and Katsu are now main characters in that. My oc Zia, anouther side character, also got his own story out of me, and now it seems like I will be working on one for Dareious and his lot too.
Thing is, I don't want to put ALL OF THESE in "Snow", sooo.. my book "Snow" might end up being a series. Interesting! One with the leading main story, and then a bunch of shorter books to go along with it. Yeah, something like that.

So I decidd I am going to start writing on my OC Dareious's group, and it will be posted between here or DA. It's going to be in diffrent parts so.. hope everyone enjoys it.

Anyways, this is a side track off what I should be talking about.
Which is something rather bad I found out about last night.
But I decided I am not going to post anything on it till this weekend.. till after tomorrow.. till I know whats going on..
Just..wish and hope me luck everyone. :)

Hope everyone is having a nice and safe day/night.

At first I was not feeling Sakuracon so much this year, it was probably because my home-town con, Kumoricon, was so horriable for me last year almost that it left a small scar in con fun.

Anyways, that aside. I AM not excited for Sakuracon 2012!! I have always enjoyed it more anyways. It's bigger, I get to see more of my friends from all over since it's bigger and worth making a trip up too (it's the largest convention in the NW), and I already know several of my favorite artists on DA who will be there that are excited to see me just as much as I am to see them, as well as friends too!! :) PLUS, one of my all time favorite Voice Actors, one who usually only does East Coast cons, is going to be their this year. STEVE BLUM!! I can't wait!! :D Christopher Sabet is going to be there too, which is just an extra bonus!!
So no way I am missing this!!
I got the hotel room registered already, and I already bought my badge. I am staying with about 5 people. One of my best friends (and cosplay partner), Tiffany L (who I took for her very first Sakuracon last year), my friend Mariska, my good friend Tiffany L #2 (YES, THEIR'S TWO, LOL, shes coming down just for Sakuracon I am sooo excited to see her!!), and my wonderful fiance. :D
I am also paying for part of my moms hotel room (shes taking all of us up there and staying somewhere else to work on her writing).
THIS SAKURACON WILL BE EPIC, YES!!

Anyways, this comes to cosplays. As per one of my resolution goals this year, I am making a new cosplay for every con I go too.
I am starting this out with working on Matt from Death Note. He's always been my favorite character in the series, and I always wanted to cosplay him, and since DeathNote is FINALLY starting to die down a little at cons here, why not?
But anyways, heres what my cosplay list is looking at so far. If anyone can help me or has suggetions for certain pieces I am missing on some of these, please tell me!! :D

So yeah!! That's it for now I guess. Any help or suggestions with any of these would be wonderful,so please look!! ^_^
Hope to see some of you at Sakuracon 2012!!

Hope everyone is having a nice and safe day/night. <3

No, I am being serious.
Cat's are wonderful, intelligent, and independant (most of the time) creatures, who will love you when they want too and will love you usually, all the time.
However if a cat decides they hate you.
They will destroy you with probably one of the most foul things in the world.
Their piss.
Seriously.
I have had cats all my life.
Currently my fiance and I have four pets in our house.
Our Tuxedo Cat (and the oldest), Linus, who has been with us since we GOT TOGETHER.
Our Russian Blue/Mix cat Neko Ally Monkey (aka Kittens), who is just a little over a year old now.
My fiances cat Chopper (aka Osirius), who is an American Bobtail (which is extremely rare, believe it or not).
And our Quial, Brian Weivoda.
Now Linus and Chopper are fixed, but Neko is not yet. However their all inside so no issues arise.
BESIDES ONE.
Pissing.
The culprit.
Usually Linus.
Why?
He use to have a urinary tract infection that we took care of long ago, when he had it, he use to piss randomly on stuff..basically DESTROYING IT.
But he hasn't done this in almost over a year. In fact anytime he pissed outside his litter box after this would be WHEN I was cleaning his litter box..and even then it was in the bathroom still so easy clean.
TILL THIS WEEKEND.

Where is this going?
I WAS going to happly show you beautiful artworks done by my friend Cara, of my OC's Katsu and Zia.
But do to a unfortunate and awfull thing that happened this weekend with a certain CAT who decided he was going to pee somewhere diffrent because he CAN, I will now be showing you beautiful artworks by my friend Cara that have been destroyed by a weapon called CAT PISS.

BUT ENOUGH SADNESS, I WILL STILL SHARE THESE BEAUTYS WITH YOU.
I'll try to get them up in a later post. :D

Hope everyone is having a nice and safe day/night.

I am known to have issues with the lovely postal service.
The biggest would be when they sent three items I bought on Amazon all around the USA and back. Literally. Just never receive half of them (I only got one, and had to re-order the other two).
But I have have certain particular issues, when it comes to sending presents to friends in other states/countrys.

It started when I sent a very good friend down in California for one of her birthdays, a present that consisted of a book of poetry, and a bracelet and necklace I made her, as well as a car.
It never arrived.
It was never returned.
No one knows were it went.
It just dissappeared in mail abyss.
I re-checked her address with her several times, it was correct.
There was no reason for it to not get there or not come back.
I thought it was maybe a one time deal, and dismissed it even though I was pissed.
Well a diffrent friend who also lives in Cali birthday came around.
I got her a tiny, but very adorable, phone charm of a cute little bear, and sent out with her birthday card.
She messaged me saying she got the car and loved it, but when I asked about her present, she didn't know what I was talking about. I explained to her, you know, the phone charm, and she said there wasn't one. She then sent me a picture of how she received the card.
The bottom left corner of the fucking envelope had been cut, not ripped, but cut open. Like an obvious cut made with scissors.. and it was just big enough to get out the phone charm too.
The charm had been stolen, right out of the fucking envelope.
I was PISSED. SO FUCKING PISSED.
So I didn't send anything out again for a good couple years..
Till my best friend Ashlea came along in Canada. Before her big trip down to oregon, I started sending her post cards and small trinkets of places we could visit so she could decide when she came down.
They all got there fine.
So this last Christmas. Christmas 2011. I decided I would finally send out presents to the friends I care for. So of course, Ash in Canada, and then my family in California, a friend in Eugene Oregon, and a good friend in Arizona.
My mother hasn't sent out the present to my family in Cali yet, but I sent out Ash's and the other two at the same time.
Well weeks went by and Ash finally happly said she got her present a few days ago and loved all of it (it takes awhile for things to get to Canada so I wasn't suprised). Her package had about 4 items in it, including two cards. I found it odd she has gotten hers but no words from my other two friends.. both which got small beautiful pieces of jewerly that represented them well..
And then.. about two days ago.. a letter was returned.
It was the present I sent out to my good friend in Arizona, which was a christmas card with a beautiful small silver chain necklace with tiny rings on it that had the lyrics to "Born to Be Wild" on it.
The card was there but....

And worse part of all this, is I can't take it in and go, HEY LOOK BASTEREDS, GIVE ME MY STUFF BACK!! Because theres no way telling WHO DID THIS!!
-SIGH-

Anyways, this ended up being a mini rant, but seriously, I had enough of this. I don't know if I can trust sending anything out anymore!! :/

In other news, raining again today. A creek in Portland did reach high water level and flooded, but no ones hurt or anything so it should be ok.. besides closing roads.
I heard earlier one of the actual HUGE RIVERS that goes through the city though, is about to reach it's tip on high water-flow and could possiably flood, which would be a serious SERIOUS issue. That hasn't happened since..1996 or something, idk. I don't live down there though but I have a friends who do.. aye. So this wish and hope with me everyone that this rain ends soon and the water levels go back down!!

Hope everyone is having a nice and safe day/night, thanks for reading.

So, Oregon is having some issues today.
Which is funny because when you look at the USA, Oregon is rarely noticed for well, anything.
But today were HAVING SOME FLOODING ISSUES.
Basically every place surrounding where I live.
Turner, Oregon is being evacuated from floods.
Salem (right next to Turner), is starting to flood apparently.
Aumsville and Dallas are also starting to flood.
Portlands handing out sandbags (though everywhere is doing that). Other parts of Portland (namely were I use to live) is having rock and mudslides, and trees are falling over.

As for where I am? Well.....

So yeah, no seriously flooding like Turner yet, thank god, but defenetly having some issues with roads, sidewalks, parking lots.. My heart and wishes go out to the other parts of Oregon that are flooding right now. Hopefullly this rain will end soon.
Welcome to the one downside of Oregon, USA!!

And of course, as I finish this it stops raining here, though it's still dark, so idk how long it will be stopped for.

Hope everyone else is having a safe and fun day/night.

Yeah, we been getting snow here like crazy! On and off, and it's been sticking, but then the sun comes out and melts it away.
Doesn't melt away the ice though.
Anyways, to my best friend in Canada, this is nothing, and to my friends in other states, also nothing, but believe it or not, here in Oregon, were it rains alot, we don't actually get snow that often (save a couple years were it was a HUGE blizzard and everyone was snowed in).
I been enjoying it, it's so nice to watch, and I enjoy walking in snow more then rain. However, I can do without the ice. I came home from the mall after seeing a friend yesterday, to half iceskating my way back to the apartment. This is even worse for drivers, were never prepared for ice. I mean sure the first hearing of snow the city goes insane and sends out de-iceing trucks and stuff, but the drivers just don't know how to handle this, lol. Like I said, rarely happens (though I notice every year were more likely to get ice and snow, so maybe people should get use to it by now).

Anyways, have some snow photos from the first day it started to snow here this winter!!:

And just now, as I wrote this, it was snowing again, huge flakes, but it stopped. No doubt it will be back though.. it's been getting below 30 degrees here at nights (last night was 28-29 degrees, lol, so cold)!!

Hope everyone is having a nice and safe day/night. :)

P.S: As I was about to save this entry, it started snowing again!! Lol, see? Told ya so.

Yeah I know it's a bit late, being the middle of the first  month of 2012 and all..but I kind of forgot to put them up, sooo here we go!! LOL. XD

These are in no certain order of what will get done first, lol:

This seems like alot, but actually a bunch are small things that tye into each other to make one big goal.
Anyways yes, wish and hope me luck!! <3

Hope you are all having a nice and safe day/night. :D

At work today. Somewhat. I am still sick, yep, still sick.
I don't think I remember the last time I was sick for.. basically a week?
And it seems to be going through diffrent stages too.
Today is runny nose and horriable cough that plans to kill my throat (which also kept me up all night because I could not stop coughing).

Yesterday was my little brothers birthday, 21st, as I said in the last journal post.
I took him out too Buffalo Wild Wings, and my friend Mariska came over to help me decorate a already made cake Oreo Cake, making it look more Mario like, and wrap the two small presents I could afford to get him.
He was quite happy with all of it, and I suppose most of the dinner itself was a present to him. And he is getting a three day birthday, since my mom is buying him a drink tonight, and then my fiance is taking him out Friday. Spoiled little brother.

While we where at dinner his gf (and my friend) Steph and him went over again how during Sakuracon 2012 they want to drive up to AKF Tavern in Everett Washington (an hour away from the Canadien Border) and drink there. About an hour drive from Seattle, WA I guess (from where we are currently, 6-8hour drive).
Awhile ago I almost forgot what AFK Tavern was, but not because I didn't know it, but mostly because people where telling me it by it's drinks.
I know what it is, never been, but it's a gamer bar, or in my case, the bar with the cool Steampunk based website.
http://www.afktavern.com/
ANYWAYS, they told me I am going with them. Which I am slightly excited about, and slightly stressed about. I like bars sure, usually ones with music so I can dance, but Sakuracon is going to be busy for me this year (or so it's starting to make out to be), and the only bars I really want to see are the ones across from my hotel (they have a gamer one there too). @_@ Plus, two of my roomies can't go (not 21), and I would feel bad leaving them alone..so idk. Maybe I will maybe I won't?

GAH, I want to sleep!!
And not be woken up.
I think thats the issue.
I havn't got to sleep at all during this sickness. XD

Hope everyone is having a nice and safe day/night.